Divergent fan fic CH.6

                                        Will's P.O.V


    "Tobias" I say like I'm tasting something, for the first time. "Tobias, I like it." I say with my eyes locked in on his. I love that name for some reason, like I knew it was his name the whole time. "So Tobias, Do you want me to call you that all the time, or just when we are together?" I hesitate when asking this question, because Dauntless doesn't ask many questions. "Just when we are together. I don't want anyone else to know that. It's not that I don't like my name. It just connects me to my past."

    I now I'll need all the rest I can get for tomorrow, because tomorrow starts our initiation. I also know that I want to spend my time with Fou- I mean Tobias. "You want to know something that we started last year?" Tobias says to me in a whisper. "Yes, of course I do." enthusiasm runs through my voice like a waterfall. "Each year we (The Dauntless leaders) pick one person. That doesn't have to go through initiation, that we feel like is all ready capable of the Dauntless ways." I don't understand this. Why would they choose one person above the rest. I don't think that is fair. I feel like they should have to go through initiation just like the rest of us. "Why are you telling me this Tobias?" My face shows anger, and I'm fighting back tears. "Because, that person is you. All you have to do is take another simulation. We then see what your fears are. If we don't think that they show cowardice, that you have that spot." My face begins to burn. I know it must be as red as an apple. I am happy that person is me, but I don't want to ease my way through initiation. "I don't want to ease my way through initiation." Tears are now running down my face. "You won't be easing your way through anything Will. You have the hardest job of them all. If everything goes well, and you choose to. You will become a Dauntless leader."

    Do I want to be a Dauntless leader? Yes it was my dream, but can I handle it. Yes, I can do anything I set my mind to. I kiss Tobias, until I can't breathe. "What was that about?" He asks with surprise. "I have always dreamed of becoming a Dauntless leader." A tear slips out when I say this. Tobias leans over a kisses me so hard I almost fall off his bed. I begin to laugh, and let out a snort. Tobias laugh's at this, and I punch him but not hard enough to hurt him. Even if I could hurt Tobias, I don't think I would want to.

    I sleep in Tobias's room that night, and jolt awake when I hear the shower start to run. Tobias looks over and notices that I'm awake, and walks over in his underwear. He leans in a kisses me. "You might want to get ready babe. You have to take that test at 12:00, and it's 10:30." Oh man. I don't have time to run to my bunk, get my clothes, and take a shower. "You could always get in the shower with me, you know?" he asks this like it's a question. "I know that Tobias, but I don't want you to distract me. I have to prepare myself, for this simulation. I will get in the shower with you, but nothing sexual. Not yet." I say in a rush. "Alright babe whatever you want." He winks.

    I get in the shower with Tobias, and he doesn't even lay an eye on him, and I don't lay an eye on him. I guess because if we see each other naked, we will get distracted. I borrow some of his clothes, and go to the simulation room.

    I sit in the chair, and Tobias sticks the needle in my neck, and says don't worry it's only a simulation. When I wake up I think I'm back in Dauntless headquarters, because I see my Mom, and Dad. My Dad walks up to me and slaps me in the face. Tears run down my face, and I run to the corner. It doesn't help, because he follows me there. Meanwhile my Mom is laughing. I think of what Tobias told me. "Don't worry it's only a simulation." I stand up, and instead of me taking the hit. I hit my father, and the lights go out. When my vision comes back I'm in a box. My breathing gets harder and harder. Claustrophobia, that's what this is. I have to embrace the small space, I think to myself. I curl into a little ball, and say "Why is this space so big." My vision blurs just enough just so I can't see anything. When I regain my vision I'm standing in a room with a gun in my hand. I see someone on the other side of the room. I hear someone's voice behind me that says "Shoot them or I shoot you." I panic. I don't want to shoot an innocent person. "Shoot them or I kill you!" I hear again. I have no choice, but to shoot them. I close my eyes, and pull the trigger. Black. That is all I see. The lights slowly come on. I am standing on the top of a tree. I clutch the tree trunk. Heights. My worst fear. How do I concur this fear. Climb higher. Climb higher, I think to myself. I am shaking so bad it hurts. I force my foot onto the next branch, and then my other foot. I move my hands up, and before I know it I'm at the top. I'm still at the top though. The lights don't go out. I look down, and see water. I have to jump. I have to. If I want to be a Dauntless leader, I have to jump. Before I know what I'm doing I leap out. I fall, for what seems like forever, and before I hit the water. I am sitting in dauntless headquarters.

   Tobias runs up to me and whispers in my ear. "Those are exactly what my fears are. There is only four. That's why my nickname is Four." he then announces to all of the Dauntless initiates that were standing in the room. That I didn't know they were there. "Will or whatever he chooses his new name to be. Is now a Dauntless leader. He has passed the test, so I expect you to treat him with respect, or you will fail initiation." I hear applauds when I stand up, and I'm not sure why. Tobias guides me to his room, places me on the bed, and kisses me. I don't remember anything else that happens that day.